Monday, August 8, 2011

A New Commitment

After a month of Tai Chi I began to enjoy my classes.  Sometimes I felt like I was old and not capable of bending and remembering the next move, but I stuck with it.  Even when it felt like dancing in a blender.  Discussions with my therapist were always coming back to my weight and how uncomfortable I felt at 70 lbs. overweight.  She told me on 2 different occasions to stop trying and thinking about it.  What a relief! Then she told me when I was ready it would all fall into place.  I didn't swallow that hook line and sinker.  Nope!  I am in my 60's and this has been an ongoing battle.  IF that was true WHY would it take so long for me to be ready and when would ready happen?

I have GURD, acid reflux.  My esophagus is scared and periodically I have a procedure to check my stomach. I had been having some problems with a feeling of hunger all the time, but when I ate I got a pain like reflux. After the EGD the Doctor told me that at some time recently I had an ulcer.  It was healed but the scar tissue had closed down the outlet from the stomach.   I now had to eat small meals and more of them.  She suggested South Beach Diet because it recommends several small meals.  Was I going to be forced into a new eating plan?  Was I ready?  It was easy to eat smaller meals.  The pain would stop me.  It was easier to eat more often, who wouldn't want too.  That was easy.  I am doing what I need to why not eliminate all white stuff?  Potatoes, breads, rice and pasta were off my radar.  I started to loose, slowly, real slowly but I was not on a diet.

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