Consistent Commitment

Life is getting better and better.  The depression is a thing of the past, even if it is not so far in the past.  Life has not changed, I have. Another visit to my psychiatrist  and she leaves me on the larger dose of Lexapro.  I may always be on some kind of anti depression meds.  I am okay with that.  Life is enjoyable now.

I am still going to Tai Chi classes and meeting people and have fun doing it.  I lost some weight and my husband joined me.  This makes eating this way so much easier and reduces more stress.  The weight is not coming off that quick because I am not on "DIET". I am realistic!  At this rate it could be years  before I unload the backpack with 70 lbs in it.  I know the key is movement, but I hate exercise!  I have no motivation to do it on my own.

While at Tai Chi classes I would watch the very young children going thru their routine.  It looked so easy for them.  I talked with David Hughes again.  I ask if he thought I could do Martial Arts.  David is so sweet and let me know that weight and age is not a factor.  He spent an hour with me, one on one.  He showed me what I would be learning and why and about punches and kicks.  After he explained how the belt system works, I fell in love with the idea of little chunks of a larger goal.  Goals within goals would keep me from looking to far into the future and making the end goal feel unattainable.  Now there was nothing stopping me but me.  I signed up for 6 months.  If I did it month to month it would be so easy to quit after one month.  I got my white pajamas, pink gloves and shoes, WCWMA patch and my white belt the beginning place (someone who knows nothing). 

I starter Martial Arts, 2 classes a week.  It was tough, I was out of breath and sweating from every pore.  Within 2 weeks I had my first stripe on my white belt, proof of learning.  You cannot imagine how excited I was.  Once again that feeling of accomplishment was like a drug I needed.  The extra movement helped with the weight, still slow but that is fine.

As of today, 2 months into Martial Arts I am ready for my exam for my Orange belt.  I am so happy with myself.  The first small goal is within my grasp, I am down 20 lbs.  It is getting easier to move.  My joints and I are getting along better and I know as I work harder one day the blood pressure will start to come down too.

This weekend WCWMA Extravaganza is taking place.  I will be performing with the Tai Chi group and the adult Martial Arts Group.  If I pass my test tomorrow I will be receving my orange belt in front of the school.